A most interesting little journey....

I am so depressed today. 
I dont want to move or go anywhere.
My stomach is upset and I just want to cry all day!
I hate unpacking!
I hate laundry.
I hate being so far away.

I need to get out of this house.
Get a job or something. 
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We are back from Indiana.  :(
I am so very homesick.
I just want to do nothing but cry! 
It sucked leaving!
Kyle is all graduated and i am so very proud of him!
My mother tried to make me feel bad for not going on vacation with them! 
it sucked! I hate when she does that shit!
It definitely doesnt help my homesickness any!
I hate stupid flipping texas!!!!!

Well it has been awhile. I need to get on livejournal more. lol
We were going to get a new apartment. 
Those apartments are so nice and the closest were to die for!
However the down payments and pet deposits didnt fit our budget quite yet. 
So we are on the waiting list and are hoping to move in the end of this year. 
Well since our original move in date was June 18th we moved around our leave for that and just keeping it that way.
We will be leaving tuesday and come back around june 4th for richmonds graduation. My little brother is graduating. I am getting old. lol.
Than we will be back in Indiana Aug 20 - Sept 9th. 
My birthday is the 23rd. I am going to be 21. 
Than Sept 1st is Andrew Turners wedding. 
Chris was going to be upset with himself because we couldnt be there and he is in the wedding. 
So now he will get to be there for Andrew!
But i still cant wait for the new apartment! 
That is about it for now. Prolly blog more later. 

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Wow over a month since my last entry. Sorry about that. Chris had his surgery so I have been taking care of him. He is doing better now. Which is really good. he goes back to work the day after tomorrow and has been going to physical therapy! I am very much ready for him to go back to work. I need to get things done around here. lol. But that is all for now!

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Alright so I guess it time for an update lol.
Things have been settling down alot around here with chris coming home!
Hard to believe that he has been home for a month!
I have adjusted well to him going back to work.
He works the evening shift which is a lot better on us than what days was.
That was the shift he originally started out on!
But anyway.
In about 6 days he will be having surgery on his knee.
So.. I am trying to get as much done around here as possible.
He had weekend duty last weekend and this up and coming weekend.
It bums me out because this next weekend was our last one before he will be down for awhile and not himself. :(
No there is no baby yet for all those wondering. sorry. lol.
I am so very happy to not sleep alone at night and just to have him here with me.
I have been working out like crazy since bathing suit season is coming and we are going to Virginia and North Carolina when we come home since mi madre is renting a condo.
WOOOO HOOO.
So flipping excited. Plus we havent seen the family down there in awhile and they get to meet chris. :)
Well I guess that is about it for now.

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My paradise is coming to an end. Reality is about to kick in. What we [the Reece family] consider our normal everyday life will be starting tomorrow.

These past two weeks have been very good. It is weird having him here. They have also been very emotional. Nothing compared to what the 4 months before were like. Will everything be able to go back to the way it was before? If so, How long does it take? Even when we go to sleep at night its weird. We dont sleep very well. I think it is just weird for both of us to have someone next to us in the bed.

I am however very happy to be able to see him and talk to him whenever i want. He has filled so many spots that at one time I hated to look at. He is now at the end of the couch, in the kitchen cooking, in the bed next to me, in the shower with me and in the car being silly with me. It is amazing. I can now look at those spots! I think that I am honestly starting to get back to my normal self. I feel complete again.

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I hate this last month.
Yes it is the hardest.
I cant sleep.
What little I do sleep is very restless.
I am very emotional and start crying over the littlest things.
I just want him to be home now!
I need to be held.
That is what I really need right now!

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All I am going to say is...
If you are a girl and are friends with me,
Feel lucky.
I hate girls.
I am done with the nonsense!

I hate being ignored!
I hate feeling like a third wheel.
I hate not having a best friend down here like I did up there.
I hate that I am just classified as a military wife.
I am a person too.
I have feelings.
I am so sick of everything!

I have filled my time. I have been going through alot of our stuff. I feel like I have gotten alot accomplished around here. Chris comes home in 27 days. There is still alot to do to prepare for him to get home. I also have to decorate. I went and bought some balloons, streamers and stuff to decorate the house. I also have to make his sign. No idea what to put on it though. Blah.

Nights are still hard but that is expected. They are getting a little easier.

Started tanning again. Also working out. I am going to stick to my new years resolution and that was to better myself. If I can better myself by next year on new years I will feel as though I have accomplished something.

Oh yeah the boy bought me presents today. He bought me gucci sunglasses, a jewelry box and a dolphin something. [he couldnt really explain it] He knows me to well!! I feel so very much better about everything from the last time I wrote a blog. No longer taking my meds. Still have to watch how much I eat and drink but not as bad as I used to. But I am eating better. And not as much since I'm not at the law office. It was hard to watch what you eat there.

So lately it seems like everyone is prego or had kids. Dont get me wrong I am very happy for them. But at the same time it makes me very sad. :( I want a baby. I want us to have a little family!

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Oh goodness. Where to begin.
I am starting to feel better from the last blog. I still have to take my meds every now and than and i have to watch how much I eat and drink. I cant each as much as I used to be able to.
New Years night was a good one for me. Well in a way. I had a wonderful new years night until Christopher called. I was hoping for a good conversation. It was a suprise phone call and made me smile. Well he got mad about the stupidest thing and said some very hurtful things. I cried so hard that night. Harder than i ever think I have. I do believe he has learned his lesson and that he really does need to think before he speaks. I will never be hurt like that again. He knows better now.
Well lets see. I no longer work for the law office as many of you may already know. I am however relieved in more ways than one. My health has gotten better, I dont have as much stress on my shoulders. However I need to find something that will fill my time. Christopher has been so supportive and this has actually helped us after the whole new years eve thing. Him being there for me and just with everything that happened. We have become so much stronger! It healed us and our relationship almost in a way. Now if only i could find something to fill my time. It is my choice whether I want to get another job or not. For now we have both decided it might be better that I just take some time off.
The only problem with me not having a job is the nights are becoming more lonely. I hate for the sun to go down. It brings an almost unnatural darkness and loneliness with it. I cant wait for that boy to be home.
Oh and if you dont know any of these stories and are wondering dont be afraid to ask.
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Alright so as many of you know I have been having pains in my back and right abdominal. Well they got really bad yesterday. I starting running a fever and puking. And the pain got worse. SO i called mi madre. And she said that pain might be in my appendix. So tippy took me to the emergency room. Well that sucks! I have never been poked with so many needles and i had to drink this nasty stuff. And dont get me stuck on the IV that sucked. They always either miss my veins or do something wrong. So my appendix is fine. Im not pregnant. No infections. They think it might be a sist on my ovary and I have to go to my dr. Blah. So tried going to work today. Smelt the chineese food they ordered and got sick. Blah. So now here i sit doped up on the stuff they gave me and ready to sleep. I hate being sick!!!!! I hurt so bad all over!

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I now what it feels like to get envelopes marked free mail. I received two very lovely cards and letter. He also cut out a heart with our names on it. It was so sweet. He got me a get well soon card and an ecouragement one. It was nice. Most guys dont think about that kind of thing. I was suprised. he really suprised me! That boy is amazing!

So I have decided that it is time for me to start school. I looked into a few programs today that I can do online. It is something that I need to do. Something for me. I would like to someday make more money than what I am now. I cant support a family with this type of income. I would also like another career. Legal work is not something that I have ever wanted to do. I was once told when I was little that I had what it took to be a lawyer. I have always been opinionated and spoke my mind when I was little. But to actually do it I dont think it is me. Ever since our car wreck I have wanted to do something in the medical field. However I have always had problems in the science field. Doesnt make much sense considering I am extremely good at math. That usually makes you good at science because they go hand in hand. Well today with stress and well me being emotional I decided it is time for me to start! I am thinking about going into healthcare management. Well Christopher and I will be discussing it before I start. He is part of my life now.

I wish that some people knew what I was going through right now and could be a little more compassionate. There are some people that this dont apply to and they are great. Yall are amazing and have helped me through so much. Some people just dont understand because they themselves have either never been through it or never will be. They will never understand what it is like to be in a town where you dont know that many people. Well a state for that matter. And also have no family down here. Also on top of that I have never lived alone or been on my own. I have always had someone there when I come home. I am just really emotional right now and alot of the time I just want to be left alone. Sometimes I take things the wrong way. I have had a hard time joking around. A lot of my friends are either single or just have a boyfriend. Therefore they like to do somethings that I dont or they want to be with their boyfriend and me be with them. Most people dont understand how hard that really is. I know that it should not hurt me but it does. I mean I am happy that they are but it just hurts me and reminds me that I will be going home alone and that my husband does the same.

So to summarize everything.... I'm sorry if I am a bitch. I dont mean to be. I'm sorry if I dont want to do certain things. Its just not for me right now. I'm sorry if I am not happy all of the time. It is really hard to be. My better half is away from me. I am trying to be as strong as I can possibly be and that is really hard and takes a lot out of me.

Night my loverlies!

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So boo to halloween! I didnt dress up this year since christopher is not here! I also cannot watch scary movies and be home alone! I love halloween. I love watching scary movies! I love dressing up! The one thing i can say though is that just plain lingerie is not a costume. Also some people should not wear certain things! It is funny because those kinds of people think they are hott shit and they are not. I saw some pretty gross things last night!



Well things are going great with the boy! Things have gotten so much better! We have come to such a good place this far! It keeps getting better! I miss his smile, the way he holds me, the way he hugs and kisses me! I just miss that boy period! I am ready for him to come home! Time is starting to go by faster! ..It also isnt hurting as bad now as what it did. There are definitely times when it does hurt really bad but at least it is not like it used to be. I am stronger than most because i am a military wife.



Other good news.... My aunt and uncle had their first baby! A little baby boy named Dalton. He was 5 lbs. 9oz. and 19 1/2 inches long. He came four weeks early! There were complications but everything is fine now and they should be coming home today! ..I am still the only granddaughter!!!



I think I am finally no longer sick. After being sick from the day Christopher left on the..13th. I am so happy to finally not feel like shit!



Welp sorry this is kind of such a long update! But everything is good. work, eat, clean and sleep is about all i do! I can't wait for the boy to come home! I miss him so much! Welp later my lovelies!!!

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So an update for all. It is the end of the month well actually today is now the first. lol.

I got all my hair chopped off. :) I love my new hair cut.
I love my job and the people that I work with.
Life is going really good.
Well except for one thing...

Now that september is over I have realized that Chris leaves in like 2 weeks. :( I am not ready for him to leave yet because it seems like we are getting closer. It is really hard to think of him being gone and I have no family down here. I have a few friends. But it is not the same as home. But it has to happen. There is no sense getting upset. It cant be changed. He has to go and maybe it will be good for our relationship.

well i am heading to bed.
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So, it happened. Buddy died yesterday. He had a kidney disease and if it would have went up another count he would start having seizures. My mom did not want to put him to sleep. She wanted him to die in his sleep and comfortable. That is what he did. She said he looked very comfortable. So yesterday was a rough day.

RIP Buddy August 19, 1997 - September 12, 2006

Wow. So it has been awhile. I am still at the same job. There is a lot of drama in that freaking place though. Not quite sure what to do. I dont know if I should stick it out or find a better job. The people I work for aren't that great of people as what I thought they were. We will see what happens this next week.

So Christopher leave in about a month. I am getting used to the idea. I will miss him greatly but life must move on. I knew it would be coming. I did marry into the military.

My 20th birthday was good. So was the party. I love all of my friends down here. Christopher got me this cute little bear and laguna beach season 2. :)

Welp life is good. There is the update

My 20th birthday is in a week starting tomorrow. With this fast approach of my birthday some revelations have dawned upon me. I am about to be 20 and I [Anna-Victoria Reece] am working at subway. I always told myself that I would have much better job than that by now. Well yesterday I found an ad in the paper for a law firm in it said to email them a resume. So I did. This morning I got a call and now I have an interview at 8:30 for the job. That makes me so happy. Well the other day ago I tried to put on a pair of my dress pants and they wont button. :( So it is time to lose weight. We went shopping today and I bought a bunch of healthy food. I want to lose at least 20 pounds if not more. I want my flat stomach back and I want to be able to fit into my pants again. I want to be happier about my appearance. People say they dont know where I am going to lose weight from but i sure know where i can lose weight from. Well i am going to finish watching family guy and get to bed.

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Welp now we are back in Texas. The good news though is I am not back on the schedule yet. :) That gives me plenty of time to clean up the house and get everything unpacked. Our stay at home seemed too short! We did get to do some fun things though. We got to go to metropolis, kings island, kayaking, bike night at jackass flats and than our fun bbq. I got to see Loree, Manders and Miss Ashley Anne. I wish I could have spent more time with them. Now the thing that made our trip home crazy... Christopher's Dad had surgery while we were home. He spent a week in the hospital and than we helped take care of him. They took out some of his lower bowel which ended up being cancerous. :( So everyone keep him in your prayers for his recovery.

I am sorry that I did not get to spend more time or visit more of ya'll. It is looking like though that I will be home for 4 months next summertime. Our trip home was lots of fun and it was good to see my family. You really dont know what you have until it really is gone. I am 1200 miles away from all of my friends and family. :(

We also got to meet our new nephew Jeremy. He is such a cutie!! And I got to see Aunt Gwynne. My new cousin will be here in November. I guess baby fever is all around. Hopefully I dont catch it!!! Well there will be pictures later to look at. Miss all of ya'll at home!!

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So work is really killing me. I am going to see if maybe I can have a job lined up for me when I come back home. This way I will never have to go back into subway after I get back and I can come back from vacation refreshed and start over with something new. I need a desk job. My legs and ankles are hurting really bad. On top of that my ankles are swollen. I love most of the people at work. Well 2 in particular but everyone else are just uhhh ok. 2 people in particular when they work together I cant take it. Than 2 others I just dont like to work with because they are lazy and slow. I mean through it I made a good friend but I need something better than a highschoolers job. Something that pays more. I am very upset that I will probably not be able to make it home for Amanda and Johns wedding. They are like my family and I dont think I can come up with about $400 to fly home. I am gonna try but I am not sure.

My sleep isnt enough right now. I just want to sleep forever. I wake up in the morning still tired and feeling like crap. I cant wear my hair back because it give me a headache so my head is constantly hurting. :( Well enough complaining and I am sorry for it. I just need to get stuff out and sit down and have a really good cry!!! Well night all.

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